We Belong

Ooh I just found this T shirt for sale. It's super cool. I'd buy it if I wasn't broke.

It's summer!! Spent the day with Piera and Heather working on stuff...like finding a job. Went to the beach yesterday, Ward's Island, so nice to be in nature. I want to live in the trees. I set up a Wordpress of all of the writing that I have published (11 articles up til now).

I decided that I would like to focus on journalism/producing. This will be my main job hopefully. It feels good to make a decision, because when I tell people what I am into, it's kind of endless. So it will be helpful to narrow it down I guess? Maybe this will also help me figure out what I would like to do my Masters in. People like Emilie Wapnick, of Puttylike fame, might disagree.

Pat Benatar's We Belong is my favorite song right now.

Winter Signs

This is a piece done by Aubrey Bearsley. He was a Nouveau illustrator, inspired by the grootesque and Japanese illustrations. His stff is very beautiful. I found it while looking up one of my all-time favorites, Poe's "mask of the Red Death".

I also fell in love with Theo Dimson, a Canadian poster designer who went to OCAD and was pretty big in the 70's, mostly for doing theater art. Pretty great.

Hannukah party tonight at some cousins' who I've never met! Is it tacky to bring Krispy Kremes???

I've been in Toronto for over four months now. A lot has happened, I guess. It's always nice to learn a new city. Listening to the Smiths now, on my pretty MacBook Pro. I am still working at Sun Media and I think it's driving me crazy. I work from 4-9 Monday to Friday. I work alone pretty much, with some funny old ladies. The York Mills office is completely deserted by 6 pm. I try to read as many different news sources as possible while I make my 300 calls.

There are other good things that are happening in my life right now though. There are some video/movie/web/sound projects starting with new people that are very exciting and encouraging.

Today I went to OCAD to check out their masters' programs. I got a great vibe, especially while looking through a classroom window of a class watching the British Queer as Folk in a film and sexuality class. I used to tape that show. Stuart Jones, played by Aiden Gillen is exceptionally sexy.

My feelings of inspiration/confusion are heightened. I am taking quite a few supplements these days. My favorite song, found on Sunday:

http://soundcloud.com/clone-nl/cjfd05-harmony-funk-cant-let-you-go

Vital Lies, Simple Truths

I am blogging again for the first time in almost a year. Life has changed dramatically. I have a lot of opinions and feel the need to rant and analyze; I am happy to have a forum for it.

I moved back to Montreal at the end of November to work at a film production company, which I did until April. In July, I moved to Toronto, where I am now working at Sun Media. I call people to see if they've received their copies of the National Post.

I've had serious culture shock moving here. In some ways more than when I moved to NY. When I moved to NY, I was sort of in awe of all that was going on around me. Here, it seems too easy to be critical of this place. It's Anglo, unhip and quiet. Last week's general feeling was that of jumping out a window. This week it's not so bad.

I work with funny ladies. I have a huge room. I bought a pair of Birkenstocks. I ran away from a bad date and jumped into a bar where I happened to know five people from Montreal.

Great song and video, especially when watched on Itouch.

On the Run Again

Today I did a Power Pilates class and then a Butt Legs and Thighs class at the gym. The instructor told me to avoid some exercises because she thought I was pregnant. I'm not. I guess I need to cut down on the sugar.

Tomorrow I go to Kripalu yoga retreat in the Berkshires with my mom. I'm excited for clean air. I'm going to get perspective on what I should do for the rest of my life.

When I have extra time at home, like at a time like this, I tend to watch a lot of Madonna interviews. I love the song, Causing A Commotion, from her Who's That Girl period.

And then to Montreal for a week. I am very excited, because I am kind of homesick. I've heard it's snowing there, though, so I think it will be a good kick in my pants. Whatever I decide to do, I guess I won't want to go back. Permanently.

Send Him Back

I am home in Montreal now, the first time since October and I love it. Everything is clean, green, calm and easy. It's taken me like 6 days to start to feel normal again, and I do, but I think I get extra cranky at the end of the night. Last night I was driving up Pins with three other people and I had been driving all day and really just wanted to go home and they did all this construction around the area and I was really confused and nobody would shut up so I ended up driving up a road on Pins the wrong way! A cab was driving about to hit me head on and it stopped and the cab driver started screaming at me and then this guy in the back of the cab knew my friend and everyone started laughing but I was still really annoyed.

BTW about a month ago I went to this Carribean resto/club in NY for Majbrit's birthday and I drank too much of Captain Jack's or something and cream soda and I ended up puking in my purse after getting out of the subway. As I am walking home I see this guy in a corner, wearing a black sweat outfit with a mustache jerking off and laughing. Still drunk, I screamed, "Ew!" Ten minutes later, I am almost at my apartment, I see the same guy jerking off in front of me, in a different part of the neighborhood, smiling and laughing. This time I say, "Why don't you go somewhere in private?" I spent the next day eating a cheeseburger from Comic Burger and watching Kids in the Hall and feeling like I was gonna die.

I saw a woman peeing behind a truck at the UN. Nobody else cared.

The only thing, it seems, that is not falling apart in and on body are my teeth. I went to the dentist today and they were very pleased. I have actually started flossing on a regular basis. The rest of me is not doing very well, physically. But I am happy. Golden Girls is getting me through.

atlantic city weekend!

running has ruined my life my ass and hips are so big now my clothes ride up and i cant fit in between chairs and tables and things.

i honestly blame it on running. nobody talks about how evil it is.